Inaction leeds to no satisfaction.

When I was in grade 7, I came to class one day without having my homework done. As punishment Ms. Kraft had me sit at my desk all day and do nothing, all the while she told me that this would be my future if I did not do work. Unfortunately for me the lesson I derived from this punishment was that the consequences of not working were really not that server. Needless to say this has not server me well, as time has gradually eroded my ability to maintain motivation or have long term goals and desires.

So here I am a rudderless ship, unable to visualize or even fantasize about sailing to bigger and better waters. Well that is all the negativity I want to write today, tomorrow I think I’ll write about memory and the role it has in limiting the scope of personal ambition.

Looking to a future

Well it seems this lovely experiment called school is comming to an end and soon I will have to find something to do with my time again. If you have any tips let me know, cause sadly I still remain largely clueless about metaphysic of work.  Chop-chop sir, the future is now and you need to be on that train come hell or high water.

IDF to halt training in populated West Bank villages

The Israel Defense Forces will no longer conduct reserves training exercises which involve the “capture” of populated villages in the West Bank, the military Advocate General Brigadier General Avihai Mandelblit announced this week.

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Yaska from Nebraska turns 30

Another great party, it was nice to see abunch of people I’ve not seen in forever. Sadly my usual insecurites crept in and I really didn’t talk to some friends that i had wanted to, I guess if I get up the nerver I could IM them. We will have to work on that. Anyhow, it was a chill affair and all in all quite good, wish I was good at small talk or felt comfortable ingaging in it, but whatever it still was a nice change of senery for a couple of hours instead of being trapped infront of my laptop trying to bang out something intelegable about Canada’s contrubution to the Western cause in the early Cold War. I really need to maintain better social contact so I spend less time in my mind as Ministry says, “A mind is a terrible thing to taste.”

GO train ride home was uneventful, I find it quite a depressing train ride, seems like a bunch of loss soul hurling through the night. The train stops at these deserted stations where a handful of people get off and rush to waiting cars, which drive off into the dark abyss of night. The sens of isolation at a GO station is palatable.

Sadly unlike my last train ride I did not make a drunken friend, kinda wish I had the girl sitting beside me was in a word cute.

Played more of that Puzzle Quest game on the way home, can’t make up my mind if I like it or not, maybe it was the fact that I was partially drunk but I didn’t win any battles. Still it’s interesting to make a competitive game out of Bejeweled, whoever came up with that idea really deserves some kudos.

Well now I’m just avoiding my task… time to get back to my essay.

Not knowing where to start

So I spent the day reading for my Latin American Politics class, readings took forever to do and they where only 35 pages.  Don’t know what it is about that text book but it sure puts me to sleep, literally I took a good hour and a half nap.  Only thing that made the reading enjoyable was my music. The Skatalites and the Proclamers make everything better.  Every time I listen to Sunshine on Leith, I am blown away by the thought put into the lyrics.

Played some Burnout Dominator with some random guy who had a PSP, does anyone not crack their PSP?  Maybe thats why software sales numbers are so poor on the PSP.   The multi-player in Burnout is simply broken control goes to poo when in a multi-player game it’s like there is some strange lag/sync problem, control just goes all mushy, which is inexcusable for a game that is adhoc only.  Burnout is fun but to be a completist would just be painful, some of the races requirer that you spend the whole race in a burnout, one mistake and you have to start it gain.  That gets kinda annoying quickly.

So I’m two weeks away from my final essay and I still lack motivation, hopefully I will get some reading in tonight so I can feel like I’ve done some work towards this daunting task.

Depression is a funny thing.

Well I’ve been trying to get some school work done for the last, what is it, 4 days and I’ve gotten so little done it makes me want to cry. It isn’t like I’m uninterested in the topic I just can bring myself to focus on a task for more then 5min so I’ve been jumping from distraction to distraction, like this blog.

So lets see my sister has been visiting for the weekend, which is nice haven’t don’t really see her enough. But she is just one more excuse for not being focused on my research.

Anyway now that I’ve had this public pep talk maybe I’ll focus on some read for the next hour or so and see if I can make some progress.

As they say, you got to put one foot in front of the other, put the other foot down, down.

Ten Sites for Free and Legal Torrents

I just wanted to check this out later so I thought I’d blog it… guess i could have just bookmarked the page, but w/e.

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THQ forging Warhammer 40K MMOG

I’m a geek, I love 40K can’t wait for this game. Now I just need to figure out how to get myself into the beta, wouldn’t that be sweet.

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Getting back on the horse

Wow it has already been a month since my last post, I’m letting life pass me by like winter in July.

Well that blog a day idea quickly died. So lets try again, I’m not making any commitments but I’m going to do better. So I’m about to enter crunch time at school, two essays due in two weeks and then another three weeks later. This is when i pay for being lazy the rest of the time. I really need to learn to stay on task better and have more confidence in my abilities.

Haven’t been paying much attention to global politics atm, its all so horribly depressing, still I really liked what Putin said about American foreign policy and the negative reaction by American political and media elites.

Oh what a fine party

Well my good friend Jono celebrated his 31st birthday and it was a fine drunken affair, started off a little slow but once 10PM rolled around the party was in full swing and lasted until 2AM, all-in-all a thorough romp of debauchery. Personally I drank way too much woke up in the early hours with an evil hangover. Thankfully I managed to find a clean glass amongst all the party rubble, sure it was a mesuring cup but it was clean and that’s what counts.

Didn’t get much sleep after that as Jen dropped by in the early morning to retrieve her forgotten purse. You know it has been a good party when someone forgets something.

Sunday morning TV really sucks, I watched a bunch of evangelical Christian programing as I want to better understand their mentality. After wasting 30min listening to this man talk about Christ’s love and plan for me with out giving me any specifics, I gave up. I wondered how people find fufilment in such vapid promises of salvation, there was absolutely no substance to the majority of what this man was saying.

Thankfully, Jono got up and saved me from my morbid curiosity with evangelicals, instead of God we watched some Ground Hog Day, that movie is great every time I see it.